Y did i have to fall for a player?

y does the first person im about to take serious turn out to be a player.I mean during break we have so much fun i thou he gonna be mine but since skool start everytin change.We barely talk and ****.Now im alway down like i want to hug him and kiss him so badly bt i cant.i get in soo much trouble jst for him. Runaway jst to see him. skip skool jst go see him. Talk to him not in public wah else he want. I want him so bad everytin i tink of him my heart keep on beatin fast and i start cry .. y y cant he be mine omgg y is thing like dis he leaving in december for some where else and my heart jst become more and more sad.First time i have to take some1 serious and it turn out 2 be like dis i cant get over him even thou i try wah im i surpose 2 do helpp mee